Restructure Life

I decide to restructure my life
because I find that reality of my life is far away from mission I set on the beggining of year...
Im going to run my own race,not going to be affected by others,
because Im talented and Im gifted,

I know,Im different !

This is sooo free,
do not compare yourself to others,
do not feel insecure when people is in front of us in some competition.

I quit, I wont compete, I have my annointing destiny, I go my way now, Emmanuel !

I feel so comfortable with myself right now,
although I feel the world is pushing me down sometimes esspecially some events happened non-stop,
now I feel free, I have my own race,that simple!
Be the best I can be, keeping my head high, walking in confident way!

I receive this message today! Sooo blessed!

Went to SOS concert at mentakab,
having a prayer and advice seeking section after the concert,
God uses his servants to tell me directly his message,
the guy point out many scriptures that I want to hear,
I just cant stop praising Him,
because God has been revealing a new height in my life that I can achieve.

I have problem in obeying God,
Im not disciplined,but I get encouraged and Im touching when the guy tells me,
"It is not matter about how much effort you put in obeying God, God doesnt want us to follow His commandments in that way,let's feel His love before you obey"
Blessed right?
This is what I want to hear in this time,
I focus too much on others and lose the most important aspect in my spiritual life,
God's love.

Just because He loves me,then only I love God wholeheartedly,
it is an useless love without feeling His love.

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Remember last week how the arrangement of God surprise me,
I wonder His arrangement,I lost my patience,
I do not know how my college life is going to continue in this way,
but His arrangement is revealed by a blessed sentence I read in an article,
"He can turn inconveniences into opportunities"

I realize that now, this is really an advantage for me in this time,
the right time, the right opportunities come, the wrong people leave and the right people enter my life,
this is sooo blessed,
no need to figure it out until it reveal by itself!
Just stay in faith and wait patiently but not hoping miracles happen every second,
it takes time to bear the most juicy fruit,
it takes time to let me know what the arrangement should be.

I learn a lesson again,
God strectch me in this bad situation,
until I step out with faith,
then the disadvantages and inconveniences become benefits for my life.

I will stay in this attitude until I stretch to that level.
A new Monday,new mindset,new lifestyle,new wineskin!