Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Become A Better Wil
My prayer is portrayed as the song "Still"
Although I still cant get my promotion yet,
but I know this is the time to believe again,
when the oceans rise and thunders roar,I will soar with God above the storm,
I will be still,waiting and sitting patiently,
see how can God turn around those circumstances for me!
Today's class,I read an article in my course guide,
surprisingly,there is a sentence which is telling my soul directly,
I get it,it says"Get that right and there shouldn't be a problem",
I know I have done many wrongdoings,but now is the day,
the day to choose to let all the past goes,
forget the past and moving forward,that is what my lovely God is saying to me,
besides,he says that,
"God tries to be as gentle as possible, and only if you ignore the call does the pain get stronger",
That's time to make decision,because I have the choice to make,
I can choose to sink down in my life right now,
or I can rise higher than before,than ever,than a place that I should be there!
Now is the time to has a new image of myself,
Im not my past anymore,Im controlling my future,
I will live with faith,hope and love again.
Jeremiah 31:14
My people will be filled with my bounty,declares the Lord.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Positive answers
Rupa rupanya there is a season you will feel really tired and can't find hope out,
when all things around show negative impact to us,
but focus God,because He has positive answer.
For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves,
God has a positive answer.
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I'm poor"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
I love all these promises!
when all things around show negative impact to us,
but focus God,because He has positive answer.
For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves,
God has a positive answer.
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I'm poor"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
I love all these promises!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Sing a new song!
Finally,there is no more struggle in my mind,
bible says,you have to guard your heart as heart is the wellspring of life!
Yeah,I do it right now!
Few days ago,I meet with many problems,
I can strongly feel the struggle in my mind,
It is a strong and hard spritual battle,
whether I choose to obey God or not.
Pathetic,I choose the desires of my heart!
"Rather,clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ,
and do not think about how to gratify the desires of sinful nature" Romans 13:14
It reminds me.
Just now I looked through the pictures that I grew from Form 3 to Form 5 until now,
there are pictures in facebook that show how is my growth,
how I pass the big test in that time,
how I was being comfortable with myself when I have a new life,
how I get back my self confidence to move forward,
how I prove to friends that look down at me and talking rubbish behind me,
how I get a new collection of good friends around me,
how I live peacefully with my family,
how I spend my time to do God's works,
And I can get the whole picture,
I clearly know that these are all blessings from God to help me grow!
But few days ago, emo emo de me think about the direction of my life,
I totally lost all the hopes to move forward!
There are battles I have to fight with,
I lose my hope in that difficult time,
I find that it is too hard to survive,
cant see the true direction and try so hard to figure the meaning of my life,
as I figure much and much,I find that I live more depressed and depressed.
Im reminding to tell myself,
am I going to live for who?
"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord"
"But blessed the man who trusts in Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its root by the stream"
Jeremiah 17:5-8
It tells me.
Obviously,I focus the wrong part again,
Joel's articles remind me times and times to focus on God and what He can do in our lives,
but I focus on the people and focus on the world,
at that time I had another struggle again,
it is about the pastor Joel and there are critisms about him,
omg,that's what in my mind.
I doubt am I read all the articles written by the "false prophet" in those time?
That's giving me another headache again!
What Im reading,does it related to God's words?
but now,
I have wisdom to differentiate whether the articles are what God wants to tell me or not.
There are many sounds in the world,
I learn to be wiser to know the sound of God and evil,
obviously,I can sense my growth in the Jan semester,
truly,the pastor's articles help me a lot,
and the most important is the scripture of Bible that Joel will post,
makes me know He is using bible teaching in his articles,
for that's God direction for me always!
because,
God's words=Promises
Beginning of a new semester,
I face again the same problem,
the financial problem worsen my status that time.
And honestly,Im being discouraged by all the things happened,
I don't have the mood to continue my study,
Many of my friends have stopped studying,
Im too dependent to people in surviving.
Here's another scripture!
"My grace is always sufficient for you,
God's strength is being showed completely in weak person"
Again,I feel that what I sow isn't what I reap!
Whether in relationship or in hard work,I doubt why I always get nothing in the end?
But today is the turning point of my probs,
I get a good and amazing result that I can't even imagine,
4 Flat in one of my subjects and others are 3.7!
I was shocked!!
That's telling me my payday is coming!
And another scripture that a sis in fb posts,
"God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them." Hebrews 6:10
It reminds me.
Although I haven't see the blessings that God will chase me down,
but I get hope inside!
I know,
Struggles make me stronger,
They make me to improve,
Im so happy to have weakness,
so that God can do amazing thing in my life,
just like how I look the pictures about my growth in these years,
Im still improving,problems will always kacau me,
but I rise higher this time!
I truly believe that,
in this new season of my life,
it will be blessed some more,
because I have God always available to help me,
with faith inside,I can break all obstacles on front of me,
I am more than conqueror!
AND NOW,
Im going to sing a new song to this season,
All Glory belongs to Him,
Amen~!
bible says,you have to guard your heart as heart is the wellspring of life!
Yeah,I do it right now!
Few days ago,I meet with many problems,
I can strongly feel the struggle in my mind,
It is a strong and hard spritual battle,
whether I choose to obey God or not.
Pathetic,I choose the desires of my heart!
"Rather,clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ,
and do not think about how to gratify the desires of sinful nature" Romans 13:14
It reminds me.
Just now I looked through the pictures that I grew from Form 3 to Form 5 until now,
there are pictures in facebook that show how is my growth,
how I pass the big test in that time,
how I was being comfortable with myself when I have a new life,
how I get back my self confidence to move forward,
how I prove to friends that look down at me and talking rubbish behind me,
how I get a new collection of good friends around me,
how I live peacefully with my family,
how I spend my time to do God's works,
And I can get the whole picture,
I clearly know that these are all blessings from God to help me grow!
But few days ago, emo emo de me think about the direction of my life,
I totally lost all the hopes to move forward!
There are battles I have to fight with,
I lose my hope in that difficult time,
I find that it is too hard to survive,
cant see the true direction and try so hard to figure the meaning of my life,
as I figure much and much,I find that I live more depressed and depressed.
Im reminding to tell myself,
am I going to live for who?
"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord"
"But blessed the man who trusts in Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its root by the stream"
Jeremiah 17:5-8
It tells me.
Obviously,I focus the wrong part again,
Joel's articles remind me times and times to focus on God and what He can do in our lives,
but I focus on the people and focus on the world,
at that time I had another struggle again,
it is about the pastor Joel and there are critisms about him,
omg,that's what in my mind.
I doubt am I read all the articles written by the "false prophet" in those time?
That's giving me another headache again!
What Im reading,does it related to God's words?
but now,
I have wisdom to differentiate whether the articles are what God wants to tell me or not.
There are many sounds in the world,
I learn to be wiser to know the sound of God and evil,
obviously,I can sense my growth in the Jan semester,
truly,the pastor's articles help me a lot,
and the most important is the scripture of Bible that Joel will post,
makes me know He is using bible teaching in his articles,
for that's God direction for me always!
because,
God's words=Promises
Beginning of a new semester,
I face again the same problem,
the financial problem worsen my status that time.
And honestly,Im being discouraged by all the things happened,
I don't have the mood to continue my study,
Many of my friends have stopped studying,
Im too dependent to people in surviving.
Here's another scripture!
"My grace is always sufficient for you,
God's strength is being showed completely in weak person"
Again,I feel that what I sow isn't what I reap!
Whether in relationship or in hard work,I doubt why I always get nothing in the end?
But today is the turning point of my probs,
I get a good and amazing result that I can't even imagine,
4 Flat in one of my subjects and others are 3.7!
I was shocked!!
That's telling me my payday is coming!
And another scripture that a sis in fb posts,
"God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them." Hebrews 6:10
It reminds me.
Although I haven't see the blessings that God will chase me down,
but I get hope inside!
I know,
Struggles make me stronger,
They make me to improve,
Im so happy to have weakness,
so that God can do amazing thing in my life,
just like how I look the pictures about my growth in these years,
Im still improving,problems will always kacau me,
but I rise higher this time!
I truly believe that,
in this new season of my life,
it will be blessed some more,
because I have God always available to help me,
with faith inside,I can break all obstacles on front of me,
I am more than conqueror!
AND NOW,
Im going to sing a new song to this season,
All Glory belongs to Him,
Amen~!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
I believe for restoration!
It is May now.
I have been going through quite many small events in this year!
And most gratefully,Im still alive!
Back to Jerantut again,
and facing the same old people and same old events again,
keep listening many accusing voices,
keep changing my viewpoints and keep losing my peace,joy and hope,
keep doing the wrong things,
keep having the same old bad habits,
and keep being stucked by some people in my life..
It is haiyoo...hard!
Yet,
I believe for restoration!
Sometimes I felt really tired of depositing in some relationships,
I felt I have invested so much,
but thing that is keep distracting my life is the disappointment from people.
Im keep doubting sometimes why Im being treated unfairly by certain people,
I know my personality well,
people don't know me will just make a label 'weird' or 'geek' for me..
These all accusing voices make me tired of proving and explaning,
I have my emotions when Im being treated unfairly,
most of time it is suffering,
as I do the right things but I get the wrong rewards,
always,I remind myself to look back to myself,
"Am I doing wrong?" "Am I treating them bad?"
But sometimes really no,some are still being just so uncomfortable with me!
What I have done to make you ignore me? T.T
Haizz...
Yet, I know the story of Joseph,
who is the one in Old Testament I admire sooo much!
He is being betrayed by his brothers and sold to Eygpt,
yet he gets blessings abundantly from God,
just because he is willing and obedient enough.
Oh sorry!
I dont have such high EQ,
when being treated badly,
I will always try to pay back or leave the prints in my heart,
let my heart be so troubled,until affecting my daily activities!
But I know this, Restoration!
God is a God of restoration,
He knows me well,
He don't look only what I did,
but He looks what my desire and my heart and my motives.
When I get to know He is in control,
I can choose to shake some accusing voices off and let them go,
why I choose to let these to affect me,
to steal my joy,my peace and my victory?
When I choose to remian at rest and peace,
it means that Im going to hand this over to God,
no matter what things,they are belonged to God's battles,but not mine!
What am I going to do is keep doing the right thing,
even a relationship is never going to prosper,
even I don't get what I should get,
even Im standing in the midst of storm,
but these are not more my battles!
This holiday,
Im going to spend it for God somemore for myself!
I will keep chasing what God has put in me,
the talents,the gifts,the desires,
And Im going to prosper like Joseph!
If and only if Im obedient and willing enough...
I won't lose my hope in my life
I have been going through quite many small events in this year!
And most gratefully,Im still alive!
Back to Jerantut again,
and facing the same old people and same old events again,
keep listening many accusing voices,
keep changing my viewpoints and keep losing my peace,joy and hope,
keep doing the wrong things,
keep having the same old bad habits,
and keep being stucked by some people in my life..
It is haiyoo...hard!
Yet,
I believe for restoration!
Sometimes I felt really tired of depositing in some relationships,
I felt I have invested so much,
but thing that is keep distracting my life is the disappointment from people.
Im keep doubting sometimes why Im being treated unfairly by certain people,
I know my personality well,
people don't know me will just make a label 'weird' or 'geek' for me..
These all accusing voices make me tired of proving and explaning,
I have my emotions when Im being treated unfairly,
most of time it is suffering,
as I do the right things but I get the wrong rewards,
always,I remind myself to look back to myself,
"Am I doing wrong?" "Am I treating them bad?"
But sometimes really no,some are still being just so uncomfortable with me!
What I have done to make you ignore me? T.T
Haizz...
Yet, I know the story of Joseph,
who is the one in Old Testament I admire sooo much!
He is being betrayed by his brothers and sold to Eygpt,
yet he gets blessings abundantly from God,
just because he is willing and obedient enough.
Oh sorry!
I dont have such high EQ,
when being treated badly,
I will always try to pay back or leave the prints in my heart,
let my heart be so troubled,until affecting my daily activities!
But I know this, Restoration!
God is a God of restoration,
He knows me well,
He don't look only what I did,
but He looks what my desire and my heart and my motives.
When I get to know He is in control,
I can choose to shake some accusing voices off and let them go,
why I choose to let these to affect me,
to steal my joy,my peace and my victory?
When I choose to remian at rest and peace,
it means that Im going to hand this over to God,
no matter what things,they are belonged to God's battles,but not mine!
What am I going to do is keep doing the right thing,
even a relationship is never going to prosper,
even I don't get what I should get,
even Im standing in the midst of storm,
but these are not more my battles!
This holiday,
Im going to spend it for God somemore for myself!
I will keep chasing what God has put in me,
the talents,the gifts,the desires,
And Im going to prosper like Joseph!
If and only if Im obedient and willing enough...
I won't lose my hope in my life
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