I decide to restructure my life
because I find that reality of my life is far away from mission I set on the beggining of year...
Im going to run my own race,not going to be affected by others,
because Im talented and Im gifted,
I know,Im different !
This is sooo free,
do not compare yourself to others,
do not feel insecure when people is in front of us in some competition.
I quit, I wont compete, I have my annointing destiny, I go my way now, Emmanuel !
I feel so comfortable with myself right now,
although I feel the world is pushing me down sometimes esspecially some events happened non-stop,
now I feel free, I have my own race,that simple!
Be the best I can be, keeping my head high, walking in confident way!
I receive this message today! Sooo blessed!
Went to SOS concert at mentakab,
having a prayer and advice seeking section after the concert,
God uses his servants to tell me directly his message,
the guy point out many scriptures that I want to hear,
I just cant stop praising Him,
because God has been revealing a new height in my life that I can achieve.
I have problem in obeying God,
Im not disciplined,but I get encouraged and Im touching when the guy tells me,
"It is not matter about how much effort you put in obeying God, God doesnt want us to follow His commandments in that way,let's feel His love before you obey"
Blessed right?
This is what I want to hear in this time,
I focus too much on others and lose the most important aspect in my spiritual life,
God's love.
Just because He loves me,then only I love God wholeheartedly,
it is an useless love without feeling His love.
... ... ... ....
Remember last week how the arrangement of God surprise me,
I wonder His arrangement,I lost my patience,
I do not know how my college life is going to continue in this way,
but His arrangement is revealed by a blessed sentence I read in an article,
"He can turn inconveniences into opportunities"
I realize that now, this is really an advantage for me in this time,
the right time, the right opportunities come, the wrong people leave and the right people enter my life,
this is sooo blessed,
no need to figure it out until it reveal by itself!
Just stay in faith and wait patiently but not hoping miracles happen every second,
it takes time to bear the most juicy fruit,
it takes time to let me know what the arrangement should be.
I learn a lesson again,
God strectch me in this bad situation,
until I step out with faith,
then the disadvantages and inconveniences become benefits for my life.
I will stay in this attitude until I stretch to that level.
A new Monday,new mindset,new lifestyle,new wineskin!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Let bygones be bygones!
Nowdays,trouble surrounds me!
Actually,in these weeks,I always hear my heart whispering in this way,
"trouble follows me,they wont go"
that happened until I let them go!
I find that I behave in a bad way recently,
in speaking and in action,I measure with my heart,I did it bad!
When our heart does not comdemn us,that is when we are doing right things!
This is for me!
Yah,
it is true.
Everytime you are insisted with a thing that you will never let go and u know that u suppose to let it go,
you will feel badly,
but u are still harden your heart,
dunno who is in control of this world,
our Heavenly Father.
He is in control of everything,
so it is no point to insist to get something or grab something tightly or struggle to make things happen,
kwoning this truth,
When you let go,you will see God doing in amazing ways!
I love what David said in Psalm 31, "God, I'm trusting You. My future is in Your hands."
I will
let go of my bad behavior especially selfishness,
let go of my insistence in some people,
let go of my past and look forward in my bright future.
Life is too short to live it in a way that my heart condemns me!
Today,I focus back on my future,with real peace,joy and victory!
Abundant life,it is here!
Actually,in these weeks,I always hear my heart whispering in this way,
"trouble follows me,they wont go"
that happened until I let them go!
I find that I behave in a bad way recently,
in speaking and in action,I measure with my heart,I did it bad!
When our heart does not comdemn us,that is when we are doing right things!
This is for me!
Yah,
it is true.
Everytime you are insisted with a thing that you will never let go and u know that u suppose to let it go,
you will feel badly,
but u are still harden your heart,
dunno who is in control of this world,
our Heavenly Father.
He is in control of everything,
so it is no point to insist to get something or grab something tightly or struggle to make things happen,
kwoning this truth,
When you let go,you will see God doing in amazing ways!
I love what David said in Psalm 31, "God, I'm trusting You. My future is in Your hands."
I will
let go of my bad behavior especially selfishness,
let go of my insistence in some people,
let go of my past and look forward in my bright future.
Life is too short to live it in a way that my heart condemns me!
Today,I focus back on my future,with real peace,joy and victory!
Abundant life,it is here!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
A special ordinary Day
I feel the sense of satisfaction overwhelms me,
my face looks brighter than before,my heart becomes more and more delighted.
God first breathes a new life into a man when He makes Adam,
after that he finds that Adam is lonely,so He makes a woman for him,
thats happenning before they sin.
There are two holes in human's heart,
one is for God to fill it up with His peace and joy,the other one is for people around us to fill it.
We feel empty always because either one of the hole is not filled with love,
either God's love or love from people.
The truth is,everyone needs both holes to be filled.
7 o clock in the morning,the sun rises higher than before,
I picked up my bag and went to school by bus.
I did a prayer before,
God,helps me to make my heart delighted,
makes me happy with things and people around me.
This prayer of course works,
after 8 hours classes,I enjoy much the lifestyle,
although it was tired and exhausted,
but I can feel the grace with faith,
with a thanksgiving heart,I dont want to blame anyone anything,
just let my heart knows,God is in complete control,
I try my best to reach out to people surround me,
love their smiles,so cute,so funny.
Guard my heart successfully,my whole day goes smoothly,
do not let my heart be troubled by anything,
unfair things may come,but my heart does say,do not lose your peace.
Always,when I feel that people dont really accept who am I,
when people try their best to make u ashamed,make you feel discouraged,
when people inaccidentantly hurt you,
when people just dont give you chances,
when you lost,when you feel empty,
God knows it,He fills my hole in my heart,
with His unfailing love.
I declare,I have my characters,do not try to burn me,Im developed.
Sounds crazy,but that's the way I will live for God and myself,
at same time,reaching hands to needed,invest in people who need me instead.
My life,comfortable!
"On this day, God wants you to know...
... that nothing costs as little and is worth as much as a smile.
Relax, let yourself smile, and see the light come back to you tenfold."
my face looks brighter than before,my heart becomes more and more delighted.
God first breathes a new life into a man when He makes Adam,
after that he finds that Adam is lonely,so He makes a woman for him,
thats happenning before they sin.
There are two holes in human's heart,
one is for God to fill it up with His peace and joy,the other one is for people around us to fill it.
We feel empty always because either one of the hole is not filled with love,
either God's love or love from people.
The truth is,everyone needs both holes to be filled.
7 o clock in the morning,the sun rises higher than before,
I picked up my bag and went to school by bus.
I did a prayer before,
God,helps me to make my heart delighted,
makes me happy with things and people around me.
This prayer of course works,
after 8 hours classes,I enjoy much the lifestyle,
although it was tired and exhausted,
but I can feel the grace with faith,
with a thanksgiving heart,I dont want to blame anyone anything,
just let my heart knows,God is in complete control,
I try my best to reach out to people surround me,
love their smiles,so cute,so funny.
Guard my heart successfully,my whole day goes smoothly,
do not let my heart be troubled by anything,
unfair things may come,but my heart does say,do not lose your peace.
Always,when I feel that people dont really accept who am I,
when people try their best to make u ashamed,make you feel discouraged,
when people inaccidentantly hurt you,
when people just dont give you chances,
when you lost,when you feel empty,
God knows it,He fills my hole in my heart,
with His unfailing love.
I declare,I have my characters,do not try to burn me,Im developed.
Sounds crazy,but that's the way I will live for God and myself,
at same time,reaching hands to needed,invest in people who need me instead.
My life,comfortable!
"On this day, God wants you to know...
... that nothing costs as little and is worth as much as a smile.
Relax, let yourself smile, and see the light come back to you tenfold."
Sunday, June 13, 2010
More than Conqueror
Missed sunday worship today,felt so bad and this feeling may ruin the whole day!
But I attended a bible class,
today's scriptures are amazing,
they have told me something that Im always trying to flee from them,
I know in deep down my soul,they are words from God,
when my turn to read that scripture,
my tears almost rolled down from eyes
Being troubles by this endless problem,
knowing I will fight for may be some more years or my whole life,
I know Im totally ruined,always battles happen in my heart,
until the scripture appears,it seems like guiding me,telling me the truth of God.
I just know I will fight for some more time,
but Im more than conqueror!
But I attended a bible class,
today's scriptures are amazing,
they have told me something that Im always trying to flee from them,
I know in deep down my soul,they are words from God,
when my turn to read that scripture,
my tears almost rolled down from eyes
Being troubles by this endless problem,
knowing I will fight for may be some more years or my whole life,
I know Im totally ruined,always battles happen in my heart,
until the scripture appears,it seems like guiding me,telling me the truth of God.
I just know I will fight for some more time,
but Im more than conqueror!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Life played by my music
Sometimes when we are leading a hectic lifestyle,
stepping out our room in morning,stepping in the room at evening,
we get used to this lifestyle,
and,
there is always a time for you to think,to feel your feelings.
Just listen to a simple music,it is not a song but a music played by a piano,
it helps me to flash back my life,I look back the sweet memories,
I remembered some pictures that had been captured inside my brain,
those are sweet and memorable events happened!
My heart is delighted.
Always,we are looking ways to go back to these happy memories,
giving so much to make something just re-happen like before,
but no matter how much bigger our desire to make those happy things to rehappen again,
they are still not happening.
Im reminded,
we can look backwards,but do not step backwards.
Just like the happy events happened before,
they are happened unexpectedly,happened not in our control,
but they just happened so smopthly,they are just seem like happened for us!
Why we want to persue the life we had gone through before?
Why dont just wait,and let another unexpected,happy events come to pass in our lives?
It is much more easier,life is so great!
stepping out our room in morning,stepping in the room at evening,
we get used to this lifestyle,
and,
there is always a time for you to think,to feel your feelings.
Just listen to a simple music,it is not a song but a music played by a piano,
it helps me to flash back my life,I look back the sweet memories,
I remembered some pictures that had been captured inside my brain,
those are sweet and memorable events happened!
My heart is delighted.
Always,we are looking ways to go back to these happy memories,
giving so much to make something just re-happen like before,
but no matter how much bigger our desire to make those happy things to rehappen again,
they are still not happening.
Im reminded,
we can look backwards,but do not step backwards.
Just like the happy events happened before,
they are happened unexpectedly,happened not in our control,
but they just happened so smopthly,they are just seem like happened for us!
Why we want to persue the life we had gone through before?
Why dont just wait,and let another unexpected,happy events come to pass in our lives?
It is much more easier,life is so great!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Existing love
Im doubted when I am surrounded by a whole circle of people that always have hidden face and hidden attitude,
and they all are so scary,
some choose to be the one fight in battle,
some choose to be the one who desire to have the power to control everything,
some choose to be the outsiders and laughing at others when someone is falling down,
some choose to hurt people back when they are being treated unfairly,
and these all prove to me,love is decreasing among people.
But most scary is,I did these all before!
Im amazed by this video,
it has nice music,
and it brings true message,
it tells audience again and again,
lay down for people,your father your mother your sister your brother your friend,
even though people who hate you,
and most of all,God is Love.
This video gives me a good reminder in my life,
when others are fighting over each other,
I should show my love,and now is the day to start practise this ah lol....
Love is the only thing lasts until you die.
I declare,let love starts with me bah =P
It is not easy but it is neccesarry
and they all are so scary,
some choose to be the one fight in battle,
some choose to be the one who desire to have the power to control everything,
some choose to be the outsiders and laughing at others when someone is falling down,
some choose to hurt people back when they are being treated unfairly,
and these all prove to me,love is decreasing among people.
But most scary is,I did these all before!
Im amazed by this video,
it has nice music,
and it brings true message,
it tells audience again and again,
lay down for people,your father your mother your sister your brother your friend,
even though people who hate you,
and most of all,God is Love.
This video gives me a good reminder in my life,
when others are fighting over each other,
I should show my love,and now is the day to start practise this ah lol....
Love is the only thing lasts until you die.
I declare,let love starts with me bah =P
It is not easy but it is neccesarry
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