Repeating History

Acting weird tonight just because have no idea with this mess up,
just like repeating history of my secondary school life,
not happy,living in self esteem mode and never touch out to the light.

I have been transforming into another mode once I go church,
but now,
I feel the history is repeating in a mannner that can affect my thought and emotion badly,
after all hard work in changing my lifestyle,
it seems like just coming back again,
being ignored,being bullied,being teased,and last but not least,
people treat me as a freak guy just because they dont see the inner side of my heart,
please,deepen your insight.

It is tiring in college now and more tiring when I come back,
can just have a place to get security and joy?

Please,history cant repeat!!!

Again,happiness is a choice.

is trying to improve despite roaring storm.

Be joyful always;pray continually,give thanks in all circumstances,for this is God's will for you in Jesus Christ. (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

We must align ourselves with the Bible and never try to align the Bible to ourselves.

Esperanza—A name who is given to a daughter by a father who was trapped more than 2 months in Chile's mine and being rescued of late!

Means "hope" in Spanish

Do you lose your hope right now?
Get glimpse of Chile mine rescue and see how miracle can happen!

...is currently gearing up for a big shift

101010:Life's true Meaning

This is a really great day,
I find out that,Jesus is really wonderful !

Just want to let the praising words splits out from my mouth...

I feel lost when I find more and more difficult to differentiate true and wrong,
I feel unsecured when I lost my bargaining power in some kind of competitions existing in my mind,
I feel scared when I try to move towards the unforeseen future,
I feel empty when I just try to live on my own world with my own desires,

and

I feel unhappy.

What my life supposed to be?
Any proper yardstick to measure a successful life??
...
He is just always there,
when I decide to build relationship with Him
even though I fall in to traps many many times and I feel shameful,
Lord is always there.

May be we don't know how to move on/live sometimes,
May be we may feel meaningless when we decide to live for God (cant see),
but once the spirit comes to us when we make our confession to Him,
He always enlighten me with His great great words,

surprisingly,

He shows me exactly the way I should live in the following days:

Those searching to know life’s true meaning
Can find it in only one way:
By serving the Lord with commitment,
And living for Him day by day. —Branon

Live for Him ♥

Capable

New semester is going to begin,
although it is short,but I will make it meaningful,
at least more than the days before...
and not to be a junk as I noticed in mirror!

Initially I feel unsecured and afraid to sta

rt a new semester,
this is because I have been going through much unhappiness last semester,
but things will gonna shift,
days will become brighter,
and officially,Im second year student now...
Knowledge,wisdom have to increase daily and daily...

I acknowledge that there is different story happens to different people,
making comparison is really wasting time and definitely,
energy.

I acknowledge that regretful feelings will take away my peace,
so I will stop it.

I acknowledge that life is not mundane if you really pay attention to small things around,
and they are beautiful.

I acknowledge that people who have anger easily is described as stupid in bible,
therefore I wont be stupid easily.

I acknowledge that I can have joy everyday,
as long as I stick to the sacrificed Jesus in the cross.

I acknowledge that I can be strong,
but not cruel in the same time.

I acknowledge that I can be kind,
but tough in the same time.

and I acknowledge that I capable to do many things,
if only I have simpler thoughts but not complicated.
That's called faith,for me.