Sing a new song!

Finally,there is no more struggle in my mind,
bible says,you have to guard your heart as heart is the wellspring of life!


Yeah,I do it right now!

Few days ago,I meet with many problems,
I can strongly feel the struggle in my mind,
It is a strong and hard spritual battle,
whether I choose to obey God or not.
Pathetic,I choose the desires of my heart!

"Rather,clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ,
and do not think about how to gratify the desires of sinful nature" Romans 13:14

It reminds me.


Just now I looked through the pictures that I grew from Form 3 to Form 5 until now,
there are pictures in facebook that show how is my growth,

how I pass the big test in that time,
how I was being comfortable with myself when I have a new life,
how I get back my self confidence to move forward,
how I prove to friends that look down at me and talking rubbish behind me,
how I get a new collection of good friends around me,
how I live peacefully with my family,
how I spend my time to do God's works,

And I can get the whole picture,
I clearly know that these are all blessings from God to help me grow!





But few days ago, emo emo de me think about the direction of my life,
I totally lost all the hopes to move forward!

There are battles I have to fight with,
I lose my hope in that difficult time,
I find that it is too hard to survive,
cant see the true direction and try so hard to figure the meaning of my life,
as I figure much and much,I find that I live more depressed and depressed.

Im reminding to tell myself,
am I going to live for who?


"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord"

"But blessed the man who trusts in Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its root by the stream"

Jeremiah 17:5-8

It tells me.


Obviously,I focus the wrong part again,
Joel's articles remind me times and times to focus on God and what He can do in our lives,
but I focus on the people and focus on the world,
at that time I had another struggle again,
it is about the pastor Joel and there are critisms about him,
omg,that's what in my mind.

I doubt am I read all the articles written by the "false prophet" in those time?

That's giving me another headache again!
What Im reading,does it related to God's words?

but now,
I have wisdom to differentiate whether the articles are what God wants to tell me or not.

There are many sounds in the world,
I learn to be wiser to know the sound of God and evil,
obviously,I can sense my growth in the Jan semester,
truly,the pastor's articles help me a lot,
and the most important is the scripture of Bible that Joel will post,
makes me know He is using bible teaching in his articles,
for that's God direction for me always!

because,
God's words=Promises

Beginning of a new semester,
I face again the same problem,
the financial problem worsen my status that time.

And honestly,Im being discouraged by all the things happened,
I don't have the mood to continue my study,
Many of my friends have stopped studying,
Im too dependent to people in surviving.

Here's another scripture!
"My grace is always sufficient for you,
God's strength is being showed completely in weak person"


Again,I feel that what I sow isn't what I reap!
Whether in relationship or in hard work,I doubt why I always get nothing in the end?

But today is the turning point of my probs,
I get a good and amazing result that I can't even imagine,
4 Flat in one of my subjects and others are 3.7!
I was shocked!!

That's telling me my payday is coming!
And another scripture that a sis in fb posts,
"God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them." Hebrews 6:10

It reminds me.

Although I haven't see the blessings that God will chase me down,
but I get hope inside!

I know,

Struggles make me stronger,

They make me to improve,

Im so happy to have weakness,

so that God can do amazing thing in my life,

just like how I look the pictures about my growth in these years,

Im still improving,problems will always kacau me,

but I rise higher this time!


I truly believe that,
in this new season of my life,
it will be blessed some more,
because I have God always available to help me,
with faith inside,I can break all obstacles on front of me,
I am more than conqueror!

AND NOW,
Im going to sing a new song to this season,
All Glory belongs to Him,
Amen~!