I believe for restoration!

It is May now.
I have been going through quite many small events in this year!
And most gratefully,Im still alive!

Back to Jerantut again,
and facing the same old people and same old events again,

keep listening many accusing voices,
keep changing my viewpoints and keep losing my peace,joy and hope,
keep doing the wrong things,
keep having the same old bad habits,
and keep being stucked by some people in my life..
It is haiyoo...hard!

Yet,
I believe for restoration!
Sometimes I felt really tired of depositing in some relationships,
I felt I have invested so much,
but thing that is keep distracting my life is the disappointment from people.
Im keep doubting sometimes why Im being treated unfairly by certain people,
I know my personality well,
people don't know me will just make a label 'weird' or 'geek' for me..
These all accusing voices make me tired of proving and explaning,
I have my emotions when Im being treated unfairly,
most of time it is suffering,
as I do the right things but I get the wrong rewards,
always,I remind myself to look back to myself,
"Am I doing wrong?" "Am I treating them bad?"
But sometimes really no,some are still being just so uncomfortable with me!

What I have done to make you ignore me? T.T

Haizz...



Yet, I know the story of Joseph,
who is the one in Old Testament I admire sooo much!
He is being betrayed by his brothers and sold to Eygpt,
yet he gets blessings abundantly from God,
just because he is willing and obedient enough.

Oh sorry!
I dont have such high EQ,
when being treated badly,
I will always try to pay back or leave the prints in my heart,
let my heart be so troubled,until affecting my daily activities!

But I know this, Restoration!

God is a God of restoration,
He knows me well,
He don't look only what I did,
but He looks what my desire and my heart and my motives.



When I get to know He is in control,

I can choose to shake some accusing voices off and let them go,

why I choose to let these to affect me,

to steal my joy,my peace and my victory?

When I choose to remian at rest and peace,

it means that Im going to hand this over to God,

no matter what things,they are belonged to God's battles,but not mine!

What am I going to do is keep doing the right thing,

even a relationship is never going to prosper,

even I don't get what I should get,

even Im standing in the midst of storm,

but these are not more my battles!


This holiday,
Im going to spend it for God somemore for myself!
I will keep chasing what God has put in me,
the talents,the gifts,the desires,
And Im going to prosper like Joseph!
If and only if Im obedient and willing enough...
I won't lose my hope in my life