I want to be Joseph!!

Praise Lord.
For he has told me somtehing that can make me continue to live in peace.

Some friends come visiting my blog and beh tahan about why my articles almost always mention "God"..

There is an answer for you.

Because,I love God as He loves me too.

But Im sorry for sometimes I will not enthrone the name of Lord in the forst place in my heart.
I may let the negative feelings and especially the feeling of scared to fulfill my heart.
That's what happened few days ago.

I start to do my "ling xiu" in this new year.
Im really determined to do that because I want to experience the Almight God more times.
I follow the "Daily Bread"instructions and I read bible almost every day started from 1 Januray.
Yet there are some days I didnt "ling xiu"because I went back to my hometown,and just play and put God aside.

No Bible, No Ling xiu...
I remembered when I come back,I have very weird Feelings!!
I know that is scare and anxiety.
For many things Im worrying about.
I feel that my mind is controlled by evil minds.
Yes,it is a bad feelings.
I even scared the things that shouldn't be scared.
So,I know the feelings of not following God's steps well.
It is terrible horrible and vegetable.

And many things come upon me and make me confused in these days.

HOWEVER,

I choose the read back the Bible where I need to "ling xiu" that day.
It is about Joseph!
Joseph that appeared in Genesis.
He shows me a good example that I should learn from.
I read it and by sudden, I feel that actually my life can go to a higher level.
As I come Nilai to study,I always lock myself in a room and let the computer be my best friend in my world.
Thats why Im always eager to go back to my hometown!
because all my dears there,my family,my friends,my church...

And after reading the "Daily Bread"today,it shocks me.
This sentence tells me all the things that I need to know.

"Today, the Lord longs to lead us. Are we willing to be redirected by Him? "

Actually it is a normal sentence and I know this well.
But now only I experience and suddenly wake up from my dreams,
and this sentence really inspires me much.

Willing,it is a hard stuff I need to learn.
A student that escapes from PLKN,I admit that Im such a coward.
I know that that is arrangement of God,but I refuse to do that.
And I always get the lessons when I come Nilai.
Not comfortable with the new things,takes time to make myself to control the enviroment around me.

So,this time I must learn the lesson "Willing".
One of my friend asked me to join the Karate Club,that time Im not willing to do that.
I dont want to be exposed to the world,ha...It is bad...
And now I know that He will lead me to another level of life.

I remembered the pastor said before"Faith Hope Love"
Three basic things that we can stand firmly in this world.
I will live with peace and joy now in addition of these three things.
Praise God.

Joseph is a person that experiences God much in that time.
He was being sold to Egypt but he can experience the presence of God.
He becomes the "head"of jail when he is jailed.
He becomes the ruler of the Eygpt when he comes to Eygpt.
This is just because he fear God and commit himself to God.
So when his brothers that come to plead him,they are regretful of what they hav done before(sell Joseph to Eygpt!)

See...God is so amazing..
He loves us...And I know He loves me....

Praise Lord...


And hor...Im still Wil yet I admire Joseph... xD