Don't ruin yourself

Finally,finish my Redang trip,
it is a blessing from God and a scripture has been proved:


Commit to Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.

Beach and Sunshine,
Sharks and corals,
Enjoy the trip with my brothers and sisters.
Thanks all ^^


TODAY,


I let judgement of people ruin my day,
I let my EQ controlled by the freaking situation,
I let myself down in mood and start having a bad temper day.


It is so easy to get my mood stucked by the situation,
I promise to myself,no more,
whatever they judge me,I don't care,

Yah,I have past,so what?
Yah,I still have the same old trouble,SO WHAT MAN?!
God haven't judge me,when is your turn to judge me?
I run my race and It is so blessed for me to read a scripture again:

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past (Isaiah 43:18, NIV).


Past can ruin people,but people can manipulate the heart,
as God asks us to guard our heart-wellspring of Life!

Now,Im born again,Most Blessed is:

On this day of your life, Au Chen, we believe God wants you to know ...
that each day is a day in making.

At any moment, you can make a different choice about what you are doing, how you are feeling, and what you are focusing on. It is never too late to start over again and make new choices.

I love my God,
because He is always doing new things in my life.

Knowing Jesus is the most blessed event ever in my life,
I don't want to get stucked by this 'sin' anymore,
today is a new day with new things God will do.

I almost fall in disappointment when I feel that God do not answer my prayer,
until I pray again, and He says,okay,life must go on.

Do not dwell in the past,new things ahead.
I choose Jesus,rather than condemnation.

Restructure Life

I decide to restructure my life
because I find that reality of my life is far away from mission I set on the beggining of year...
Im going to run my own race,not going to be affected by others,
because Im talented and Im gifted,

I know,Im different !

This is sooo free,
do not compare yourself to others,
do not feel insecure when people is in front of us in some competition.

I quit, I wont compete, I have my annointing destiny, I go my way now, Emmanuel !

I feel so comfortable with myself right now,
although I feel the world is pushing me down sometimes esspecially some events happened non-stop,
now I feel free, I have my own race,that simple!
Be the best I can be, keeping my head high, walking in confident way!

I receive this message today! Sooo blessed!

Went to SOS concert at mentakab,
having a prayer and advice seeking section after the concert,
God uses his servants to tell me directly his message,
the guy point out many scriptures that I want to hear,
I just cant stop praising Him,
because God has been revealing a new height in my life that I can achieve.

I have problem in obeying God,
Im not disciplined,but I get encouraged and Im touching when the guy tells me,
"It is not matter about how much effort you put in obeying God, God doesnt want us to follow His commandments in that way,let's feel His love before you obey"
Blessed right?
This is what I want to hear in this time,
I focus too much on others and lose the most important aspect in my spiritual life,
God's love.

Just because He loves me,then only I love God wholeheartedly,
it is an useless love without feeling His love.

... ... ... ....

Remember last week how the arrangement of God surprise me,
I wonder His arrangement,I lost my patience,
I do not know how my college life is going to continue in this way,
but His arrangement is revealed by a blessed sentence I read in an article,
"He can turn inconveniences into opportunities"

I realize that now, this is really an advantage for me in this time,
the right time, the right opportunities come, the wrong people leave and the right people enter my life,
this is sooo blessed,
no need to figure it out until it reveal by itself!
Just stay in faith and wait patiently but not hoping miracles happen every second,
it takes time to bear the most juicy fruit,
it takes time to let me know what the arrangement should be.

I learn a lesson again,
God strectch me in this bad situation,
until I step out with faith,
then the disadvantages and inconveniences become benefits for my life.

I will stay in this attitude until I stretch to that level.
A new Monday,new mindset,new lifestyle,new wineskin!

Let bygones be bygones!

Nowdays,trouble surrounds me!

Actually,in these weeks,I always hear my heart whispering in this way,
"trouble follows me,they wont go"

that happened until I let them go!

I find that I behave in a bad way recently,
in speaking and in action,I measure with my heart,I did it bad!

When our heart does not comdemn us,that is when we are doing right things!
This is for me!

Yah,
it is true.
Everytime you are insisted with a thing that you will never let go and u know that u suppose to let it go,
you will feel badly,
but u are still harden your heart,
dunno who is in control of this world,
our Heavenly Father.

He is in control of everything,
so it is no point to insist to get something or grab something tightly or struggle to make things happen,
kwoning this truth,

When you let go,you will see God doing in amazing ways!


I love what David said in Psalm 31, "God, I'm trusting You. My future is in Your hands."


I will
let go of my bad behavior especially selfishness,
let go of my insistence in some people,
let go of my past and look forward in my bright future.

Life is too short to live it in a way that my heart condemns me!

Today,I focus back on my future,with real peace,joy and victory!
Abundant life,it is here!

A special ordinary Day

I feel the sense of satisfaction overwhelms me,
my face looks brighter than before,my heart becomes more and more delighted.


God first breathes a new life into a man when He makes Adam,
after that he finds that Adam is lonely,so He makes a woman for him,
thats happenning before they sin.

There are two holes in human's heart,
one is for God to fill it up with His peace and joy,the other one is for people around us to fill it.
We feel empty always because either one of the hole is not filled with love,
either God's love or love from people.

The truth is,everyone needs both holes to be filled.

7 o clock in the morning,the sun rises higher than before,
I picked up my bag and went to school by bus.

I did a prayer before,
God,helps me to make my heart delighted,
makes me happy with things and people around me.

This prayer of course works,
after 8 hours classes,I enjoy much the lifestyle,
although it was tired and exhausted,
but I can feel the grace with faith,
with a thanksgiving heart,I dont want to blame anyone anything,
just let my heart knows,God is in complete control,
I try my best to reach out to people surround me,
love their smiles,so cute,so funny.

Guard my heart successfully,my whole day goes smoothly,
do not let my heart be troubled by anything,
unfair things may come,but my heart does say,do not lose your peace.

Always,when I feel that people dont really accept who am I,
when people try their best to make u ashamed,make you feel discouraged,
when people inaccidentantly hurt you,
when people just dont give you chances,
when you lost,when you feel empty,
God knows it,He fills my hole in my heart,

with His unfailing love.

I declare,I have my characters,do not try to burn me,Im developed.

Sounds crazy,but that's the way I will live for God and myself,
at same time,reaching hands to needed,invest in people who need me instead.

My life,comfortable!



"On this day, God wants you to know...
... that nothing costs as little and is worth as much as a smile.
Relax, let yourself smile, and see the light come back to you tenfold."

More than Conqueror

Missed sunday worship today,felt so bad and this feeling may ruin the whole day!

But I attended a bible class,
today's scriptures are amazing,
they have told me something that Im always trying to flee from them,
I know in deep down my soul,they are words from God,
when my turn to read that scripture,
my tears almost rolled down from eyes

Being troubles by this endless problem,
knowing I will fight for may be some more years or my whole life,
I know Im totally ruined,always battles happen in my heart,
until the scripture appears,it seems like guiding me,telling me the truth of God.

I just know I will fight for some more time,
but Im more than conqueror!

Life played by my music

Sometimes when we are leading a hectic lifestyle,
stepping out our room in morning,stepping in the room at evening,
we get used to this lifestyle,

and,

there is always a time for you to think,to feel your feelings.

Just listen to a simple music,it is not a song but a music played by a piano,
it helps me to flash back my life,I look back the sweet memories,
I remembered some pictures that had been captured inside my brain,
those are sweet and memorable events happened!

My heart is delighted.

Always,we are looking ways to go back to these happy memories,
giving so much to make something just re-happen like before,
but no matter how much bigger our desire to make those happy things to rehappen again,
they are still not happening.

Im reminded,
we can look backwards,but do not step backwards.

Just like the happy events happened before,
they are happened unexpectedly,happened not in our control,
but they just happened so smopthly,they are just seem like happened for us!

Why we want to persue the life we had gone through before?

Why dont just wait,and let another unexpected,happy events come to pass in our lives?

It is much more easier,life is so great!

Existing love

Im doubted when I am surrounded by a whole circle of people that always have hidden face and hidden attitude,

and they all are so scary,

some choose to be the one fight in battle,

some choose to be the one who desire to have the power to control everything,

some choose to be the outsiders and laughing at others when someone is falling down,

some choose to hurt people back when they are being treated unfairly,

and these all prove to me,love is decreasing among people.

But most scary is,I did these all before!




Im amazed by this video,

it has nice music,

and it brings true message,

it tells audience again and again,

lay down for people,your father your mother your sister your brother your friend,

even though people who hate you,

and most of all,God is Love.

This video gives me a good reminder in my life,

when others are fighting over each other,

I should show my love,and now is the day to start practise this ah lol....

Love is the only thing lasts until you die.

I declare,let love starts with me bah =P

It is not easy but it is neccesarry

Become A Better Wil

My prayer is portrayed as the song "Still"
Although I still cant get my promotion yet,
but I know this is the time to believe again,
when the oceans rise and thunders roar,I will soar with God above the storm,
I will be still,waiting and sitting patiently,
see how can God turn around those circumstances for me!

Today's class,I read an article in my course guide,
surprisingly,there is a sentence which is telling my soul directly,

I get it,it says"Get that right and there shouldn't be a problem",

I know I have done many wrongdoings,but now is the day,
the day to choose to let all the past goes,
forget the past and moving forward,that is what my lovely God is saying to me,
besides,he says that,

"God tries to be as gentle as possible, and only if you ignore the call does the pain get stronger",

That's time to make decision,because I have the choice to make,
I can choose to sink down in my life right now,
or I can rise higher than before,than ever,than a place that I should be there!

Now is the time to has a new image of myself,
Im not my past anymore,Im controlling my future,
I will live with faith,hope and love again.

Jeremiah 31:14
My people will be filled with my bounty,declares the Lord.

Positive answers

Rupa rupanya there is a season you will feel really tired and can't find hope out,
when all things around show negative impact to us,
but focus God,because He has positive answer.


For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves,
God has a positive answer.


You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)

You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I'm poor"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)


I love all these promises!

Sing a new song!

Finally,there is no more struggle in my mind,
bible says,you have to guard your heart as heart is the wellspring of life!


Yeah,I do it right now!

Few days ago,I meet with many problems,
I can strongly feel the struggle in my mind,
It is a strong and hard spritual battle,
whether I choose to obey God or not.
Pathetic,I choose the desires of my heart!

"Rather,clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ,
and do not think about how to gratify the desires of sinful nature" Romans 13:14

It reminds me.


Just now I looked through the pictures that I grew from Form 3 to Form 5 until now,
there are pictures in facebook that show how is my growth,

how I pass the big test in that time,
how I was being comfortable with myself when I have a new life,
how I get back my self confidence to move forward,
how I prove to friends that look down at me and talking rubbish behind me,
how I get a new collection of good friends around me,
how I live peacefully with my family,
how I spend my time to do God's works,

And I can get the whole picture,
I clearly know that these are all blessings from God to help me grow!





But few days ago, emo emo de me think about the direction of my life,
I totally lost all the hopes to move forward!

There are battles I have to fight with,
I lose my hope in that difficult time,
I find that it is too hard to survive,
cant see the true direction and try so hard to figure the meaning of my life,
as I figure much and much,I find that I live more depressed and depressed.

Im reminding to tell myself,
am I going to live for who?


"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord"

"But blessed the man who trusts in Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its root by the stream"

Jeremiah 17:5-8

It tells me.


Obviously,I focus the wrong part again,
Joel's articles remind me times and times to focus on God and what He can do in our lives,
but I focus on the people and focus on the world,
at that time I had another struggle again,
it is about the pastor Joel and there are critisms about him,
omg,that's what in my mind.

I doubt am I read all the articles written by the "false prophet" in those time?

That's giving me another headache again!
What Im reading,does it related to God's words?

but now,
I have wisdom to differentiate whether the articles are what God wants to tell me or not.

There are many sounds in the world,
I learn to be wiser to know the sound of God and evil,
obviously,I can sense my growth in the Jan semester,
truly,the pastor's articles help me a lot,
and the most important is the scripture of Bible that Joel will post,
makes me know He is using bible teaching in his articles,
for that's God direction for me always!

because,
God's words=Promises

Beginning of a new semester,
I face again the same problem,
the financial problem worsen my status that time.

And honestly,Im being discouraged by all the things happened,
I don't have the mood to continue my study,
Many of my friends have stopped studying,
Im too dependent to people in surviving.

Here's another scripture!
"My grace is always sufficient for you,
God's strength is being showed completely in weak person"


Again,I feel that what I sow isn't what I reap!
Whether in relationship or in hard work,I doubt why I always get nothing in the end?

But today is the turning point of my probs,
I get a good and amazing result that I can't even imagine,
4 Flat in one of my subjects and others are 3.7!
I was shocked!!

That's telling me my payday is coming!
And another scripture that a sis in fb posts,
"God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them." Hebrews 6:10

It reminds me.

Although I haven't see the blessings that God will chase me down,
but I get hope inside!

I know,

Struggles make me stronger,

They make me to improve,

Im so happy to have weakness,

so that God can do amazing thing in my life,

just like how I look the pictures about my growth in these years,

Im still improving,problems will always kacau me,

but I rise higher this time!


I truly believe that,
in this new season of my life,
it will be blessed some more,
because I have God always available to help me,
with faith inside,I can break all obstacles on front of me,
I am more than conqueror!

AND NOW,
Im going to sing a new song to this season,
All Glory belongs to Him,
Amen~!

I believe for restoration!

It is May now.
I have been going through quite many small events in this year!
And most gratefully,Im still alive!

Back to Jerantut again,
and facing the same old people and same old events again,

keep listening many accusing voices,
keep changing my viewpoints and keep losing my peace,joy and hope,
keep doing the wrong things,
keep having the same old bad habits,
and keep being stucked by some people in my life..
It is haiyoo...hard!

Yet,
I believe for restoration!
Sometimes I felt really tired of depositing in some relationships,
I felt I have invested so much,
but thing that is keep distracting my life is the disappointment from people.
Im keep doubting sometimes why Im being treated unfairly by certain people,
I know my personality well,
people don't know me will just make a label 'weird' or 'geek' for me..
These all accusing voices make me tired of proving and explaning,
I have my emotions when Im being treated unfairly,
most of time it is suffering,
as I do the right things but I get the wrong rewards,
always,I remind myself to look back to myself,
"Am I doing wrong?" "Am I treating them bad?"
But sometimes really no,some are still being just so uncomfortable with me!

What I have done to make you ignore me? T.T

Haizz...



Yet, I know the story of Joseph,
who is the one in Old Testament I admire sooo much!
He is being betrayed by his brothers and sold to Eygpt,
yet he gets blessings abundantly from God,
just because he is willing and obedient enough.

Oh sorry!
I dont have such high EQ,
when being treated badly,
I will always try to pay back or leave the prints in my heart,
let my heart be so troubled,until affecting my daily activities!

But I know this, Restoration!

God is a God of restoration,
He knows me well,
He don't look only what I did,
but He looks what my desire and my heart and my motives.



When I get to know He is in control,

I can choose to shake some accusing voices off and let them go,

why I choose to let these to affect me,

to steal my joy,my peace and my victory?

When I choose to remian at rest and peace,

it means that Im going to hand this over to God,

no matter what things,they are belonged to God's battles,but not mine!

What am I going to do is keep doing the right thing,

even a relationship is never going to prosper,

even I don't get what I should get,

even Im standing in the midst of storm,

but these are not more my battles!


This holiday,
Im going to spend it for God somemore for myself!
I will keep chasing what God has put in me,
the talents,the gifts,the desires,
And Im going to prosper like Joseph!
If and only if Im obedient and willing enough...
I won't lose my hope in my life

You Are Holy (Prince of Peace)

Be still, God is our All in All !

Love is all that remains!

Sharing:

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers… (I Peter 4:8, NIV)

So often, people try to make others fit into their mold and be just like them. We think, “If they would just change, then I wouldn’t get upset. If they would just do it the way I want, then they wouldn’t get on my nerves.” But really, we need to give people room to be who God created them to be. Life is too short to spend it trying to fix everybody. Sure, we should encourage people and help them grow and come up higher. But we have to come to the point where we step back and say, “All right, this is who God made them to be, and I’m going to accept them the way they are. Just because they don’t have my same strengths, I’m not going to let that frustrate me.” We have to choose love every day because love covers over our differences and offenses. Love is what allows us to appreciate what others bring into our lives, and it brings us together in unity.

Today, above all, choose love. Choose to focus on the things that make your relationships stronger because in the end, love is all that remains.

This is an article written by Joel,pastor in America!

This article has reminded me so much,

and I just need it now!

There is some long time ago,

Im being offensed by a friend,

I told my mum,some of my friends,

it is giving me peer pressure,

Im living in some kind of nervous tension mood!

I choose to ignore,

ignore back the person!

Walao! How dare am I!

Obviously,this is not the way God wants me to live!

But gratefully,

I get this message!

I love most the two sentences from this passage especially!

Life is too short to spend it to fix everybody.

Love is all that remains.

When we are being treated unfairly,

we sure have negativce mindset rush into our head,

but stay calm,that is not a good voice,

but then,instead of paying back the bad actions or win over argueing,

choose to stay at peace and calm,

this is what I hear today,

this is the way I learn today,

although things happen quite some long time ago,

and love can cover all the mistakes,

just like how God save me,

Love is all that remains in the ending!

So...admit that,Im wrong!

This is time to fix back the relationship!xo!

A Choice

Back to this lovely hometown this time,
there are many chances to meet with many people here,
and I feel that always the problems exist,
about the people,about the circumstance,
how bad it was,how terrible someone is.

My God,it affects my status sometimes!

And these days I know a clue:

You can choose to live with the circumstances that people around you are talking about,
or you can run your own race, live in the way positively!

Somethings or someone didnt change doesnt mean God is giving up them,
may be there are many events will happen after then that we dont know.
But the circumstances always show that there is no more hope,
but keep in mind that God is always doing behinde the scenes,
thats why God's ways are higher than us,
just like Joseph that is talking to his brothers that have been treated him badly,
"I forgive you all,Im focusing on what God miracle workings"

Scripture says,
"Now to him who is able to do in full measure more than all our desires or thoughts, through the power which is working in us"

Keep expecting,believing and doing right thing is the clue.

Never give up, for persistence produces success finally!

I clearly know it is not easy to get off the circumstance,
but I dare to believe :)

The "Wow"

We are easily get ourselves stuck in a constant circumstance.
the circumstance may be an easy, comfortable; but it can also be full of negative sounds.
We get stuck, we don't know how to do even we have done a prayer.

Im being so thanksgiving in these weeks,
for God has given me a sooo good inspiratorto keep my mindset always focus on Him.

There is something happened in my father mental problems.
My father thought that he will be out of his mind, he had suffered enough in the past,
from his activities, I can read that, He is losing his passionate about his life.

Now, the old doctor passed away,
a new doctor comes,
giving him a correct perspection of his "created sickness".

It is actually a small case, my dad din think it positively,
he think in totally negative mindset,
but my mum encourages him, don't think too much, take a esay life.
He starts jogging..I start praying...And now...

God WOW me!!
My prayer is being responded.

The change of doctor gives him a really new hope,
that is small case, the doctor can know him through the conservation,
and the conversation with my sister about dad's life,
may be my father lacks of conversation with others,
think, who can a big man talk to, wanna pretending to be strong always,
and have to be strong always to protect his family and himself..

HOWEVER !!

God is working..behind the scenes...


I know, I understand,
Our mindset affects the things we can do in our lives,
Our mindset determines which level our lives will be.

What thoughts do you have now?

Positive or Negative?

You really can make miracle in your life, just start from your thought, capturing His promises,
activating faith, moving forward with joy and peace which are given FREE for you,
and now, this is a new life!

Bible says,

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
(Proverbs 4:23)

Same application for Christian or non-Christian.

Againm Glory to Most High God!!!!