Acting weird tonight just because have no idea with this mess up,
just like repeating history of my secondary school life,
not happy,living in self esteem mode and never touch out to the light.
I have been transforming into another mode once I go church,
but now,
I feel the history is repeating in a mannner that can affect my thought and emotion badly,
after all hard work in changing my lifestyle,
it seems like just coming back again,
being ignored,being bullied,being teased,and last but not least,
people treat me as a freak guy just because they dont see the inner side of my heart,
please,deepen your insight.
It is tiring in college now and more tiring when I come back,
can just have a place to get security and joy?
Please,history cant repeat!!!
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
101010:Life's true Meaning
This is a really great day,
I find out that,Jesus is really wonderful !
Just want to let the praising words splits out from my mouth...
I feel lost when I find more and more difficult to differentiate true and wrong,
I feel unsecured when I lost my bargaining power in some kind of competitions existing in my mind,
I feel scared when I try to move towards the unforeseen future,
I feel empty when I just try to live on my own world with my own desires,
and
I feel unhappy.
What my life supposed to be?
Any proper yardstick to measure a successful life??
...
He is just always there,
when I decide to build relationship with Him
even though I fall in to traps many many times and I feel shameful,
Lord is always there.
May be we don't know how to move on/live sometimes,
May be we may feel meaningless when we decide to live for God (cant see),
but once the spirit comes to us when we make our confession to Him,
He always enlighten me with His great great words,
surprisingly,
He shows me exactly the way I should live in the following days:
Those searching to know life’s true meaning
Can find it in only one way:
By serving the Lord with commitment,
And living for Him day by day. —Branon
Live for Him ♥
I find out that,Jesus is really wonderful !
Just want to let the praising words splits out from my mouth...
I feel lost when I find more and more difficult to differentiate true and wrong,
I feel unsecured when I lost my bargaining power in some kind of competitions existing in my mind,
I feel scared when I try to move towards the unforeseen future,
I feel empty when I just try to live on my own world with my own desires,
and
I feel unhappy.
What my life supposed to be?
Any proper yardstick to measure a successful life??
...
He is just always there,
when I decide to build relationship with Him
even though I fall in to traps many many times and I feel shameful,
Lord is always there.
May be we don't know how to move on/live sometimes,
May be we may feel meaningless when we decide to live for God (cant see),
but once the spirit comes to us when we make our confession to Him,
He always enlighten me with His great great words,
surprisingly,
He shows me exactly the way I should live in the following days:
Those searching to know life’s true meaning
Can find it in only one way:
By serving the Lord with commitment,
And living for Him day by day. —Branon
Live for Him ♥
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Capable
New semester is going to begin,
although it is short,but I will make it meaningful,
at least more than the days before...
and not to be a junk as I noticed in mirror!
Initially I feel unsecured and afraid to sta rt a new semester,
this is because I have been going through much unhappiness last semester,
but things will gonna shift,
days will become brighter,
and officially,Im second year student now...
Knowledge,wisdom have to increase daily and daily...
I acknowledge that there is different story happens to different people,
making comparison is really wasting time and definitely,
energy.
I acknowledge that regretful feelings will take away my peace,
so I will stop it.
I acknowledge that life is not mundane if you really pay attention to small things around,
and they are beautiful.
I acknowledge that people who have anger easily is described as stupid in bible,
therefore I wont be stupid easily.
I acknowledge that I can have joy everyday,
as long as I stick to the sacrificed Jesus in the cross.
I acknowledge that I can be strong,
but not cruel in the same time.
I acknowledge that I can be kind,
but tough in the same time.
and I acknowledge that I capable to do many things,
if only I have simpler thoughts but not complicated.
That's called faith,for me.
although it is short,but I will make it meaningful,
at least more than the days before...
and not to be a junk as I noticed in mirror!
Initially I feel unsecured and afraid to sta rt a new semester,
this is because I have been going through much unhappiness last semester,
but things will gonna shift,
days will become brighter,
and officially,Im second year student now...
Knowledge,wisdom have to increase daily and daily...
I acknowledge that there is different story happens to different people,
making comparison is really wasting time and definitely,
energy.
I acknowledge that regretful feelings will take away my peace,
so I will stop it.
I acknowledge that life is not mundane if you really pay attention to small things around,
and they are beautiful.
I acknowledge that people who have anger easily is described as stupid in bible,
therefore I wont be stupid easily.
I acknowledge that I can have joy everyday,
as long as I stick to the sacrificed Jesus in the cross.
I acknowledge that I can be strong,
but not cruel in the same time.
I acknowledge that I can be kind,
but tough in the same time.
and I acknowledge that I capable to do many things,
if only I have simpler thoughts but not complicated.
That's called faith,for me.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Scandal
Scandal can explode every second,
there is nothing like 'secret' in this world,
everything u want to hide,everything u want to cover,
it will explode one day...
Scandal happens,or in positive term,rumor,
can spread by leaps and bounds in a small town,
a small rumor or a big one,
because everyone is interested in it,
but have you ever think if the scandal will not be that funny if it is all about u...
Don't be devastated,
because this is time to know true friends, to know the truth hidden,
and once u get it through,
it makes u strong than before,
it makes you wiser than before,
enjoy the time...
Have these feelings after watching Desperate Housewives,
and there are really good sentences to be shared:
Good friends support each other after they have been humiliated,
Great friends pretend nothing happened in the first place.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Start again with Praising
Owh..mess up!
A great mess up,in anything right now!
In this midst of confusion,I know that God is a good God,
I believe that He will going to pour blessings to me,family and friends,anything aroud me!
Start over this life with Praising Him
Faith,Hope,Love
A great mess up,in anything right now!
In this midst of confusion,I know that God is a good God,
I believe that He will going to pour blessings to me,family and friends,anything aroud me!
Start over this life with Praising Him
Faith,Hope,Love
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Feelings
Controversial feelings do happen inside my heart,
I feel fed up with this life,these friends and these circuamstances!
Honestly to say,Im really don't have any faith some more to lean on God,
Im undergoing a bad season...
~Pray for me,I wonder perceptions I harbour for right now~
Just feel that it is so unfair,
why bad people will receive such "blessings",
good people who insist in doing good deeds have to thrive,
I really dont have the eye of faith,
to see upon this curcumstance in parts of life and even in college,
just wanna give up,just wanna rest,just wanna doubt,just wanna blame,
as these feelings will make me feel more comfortable...
The recent words ask me to arise,
I have tried so many times and every time,
disappointments will knock me down and I try and try again,
I try to stay in faith,using words typed in Facebook(words of God) to remind me,
using words pasted on wall of my room to replenish my energy,
however,it makes me more disappointed after I plant seed of faith in God's words...
This is just too hard for me in this semester,
I find that,I lost my own value,cant find purpose in process of finding.
Trying to be mature over some circuamstances,
but actions of people piss me off and drive me up tp the wall.
Just feel like "I bear enough!" "Go away!"...
Tired of believing some more good will happen...
WHAT HAPPEN TO ME??
...in the process of struggling...
I feel fed up with this life,these friends and these circuamstances!
Honestly to say,Im really don't have any faith some more to lean on God,
Im undergoing a bad season...
~Pray for me,I wonder perceptions I harbour for right now~
Just feel that it is so unfair,
why bad people will receive such "blessings",
good people who insist in doing good deeds have to thrive,
I really dont have the eye of faith,
to see upon this curcumstance in parts of life and even in college,
just wanna give up,just wanna rest,just wanna doubt,just wanna blame,
as these feelings will make me feel more comfortable...
The recent words ask me to arise,
I have tried so many times and every time,
disappointments will knock me down and I try and try again,
I try to stay in faith,using words typed in Facebook(words of God) to remind me,
using words pasted on wall of my room to replenish my energy,
however,it makes me more disappointed after I plant seed of faith in God's words...
This is just too hard for me in this semester,
I find that,I lost my own value,cant find purpose in process of finding.
Trying to be mature over some circuamstances,
but actions of people piss me off and drive me up tp the wall.
Just feel like "I bear enough!" "Go away!"...
Tired of believing some more good will happen...
WHAT HAPPEN TO ME??
...in the process of struggling...
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Enlarging Vision
Dare to Dream!
Woohooo! Im excited!
My friend just noticed me a good news that is promotion highlighted by AirAsia:
This is a really great promotion and all the tickets are being so cheap now!
Im really excited because I walk nearer to what I want in my life,trip to the world!!
I wonder why I have such a great faith that I will fulfill my fream in next year,
Hahahaaas....This taught me to "enlarge my vision"...
There is a habit to focus on daily routine problems,
when habit conquer you rather than you conquer the bad habit,
we have to think in long term,set a long term goal,focus and achieve!
Although Im still not able to buy the tickets to go Korea with a trip,
but it does help me to make my vision bigger and I can get a bigger picture in my life!
It is important to have dreams,because once your life lack of passion,
dream will push you to conquer the reality,
Moreover,God is be with me!
What I want to highlight is:
Dream bigger,be the best each day I can be,focus and achieve,let blessings overtake you!
Xoxo!!
Woohooo! Im excited!
My friend just noticed me a good news that is promotion highlighted by AirAsia:
This is a really great promotion and all the tickets are being so cheap now!
Im really excited because I walk nearer to what I want in my life,trip to the world!!
I wonder why I have such a great faith that I will fulfill my fream in next year,
Hahahaaas....This taught me to "enlarge my vision"...
There is a habit to focus on daily routine problems,
when habit conquer you rather than you conquer the bad habit,
we have to think in long term,set a long term goal,focus and achieve!
Although Im still not able to buy the tickets to go Korea with a trip,
but it does help me to make my vision bigger and I can get a bigger picture in my life!
It is important to have dreams,because once your life lack of passion,
dream will push you to conquer the reality,
Moreover,God is be with me!
What I want to highlight is:
Dream bigger,be the best each day I can be,focus and achieve,let blessings overtake you!
Xoxo!!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Lessons substitute Healing
Wao!! Only the second day I want to start over but the reality crashes me down,wtc!
I learn that,
Child of God must learn to live by holy spirit and does not gratify own desires.
Alamak,Im almost beaten down by the incident happened,
I can choose to blame everything again,
but instead of blaming,I see this from perspective of God.
This is actually a lesson taught from God to me,
God want me to learn to let my life lead my spirit but not own desires,
this is also the truth that I always flee to face it,
but now,it push me to face it,
in this moment,I find that it is blessing and my heart is so peaceful,
there is a way for me now to continue my daily life,
"Therefore,strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. 'Make level paths for your feet',so that the lame may not be disabled,but rather healed" Hebrews 12:12
Apparently,this time I focus on Healing.
There is time when you have to die for resurrection,
burial is the process and live eternally is the end,
therefore,just be still !
I learn that,
Child of God must learn to live by holy spirit and does not gratify own desires.
Alamak,Im almost beaten down by the incident happened,
I can choose to blame everything again,
but instead of blaming,I see this from perspective of God.
This is actually a lesson taught from God to me,
God want me to learn to let my life lead my spirit but not own desires,
this is also the truth that I always flee to face it,
but now,it push me to face it,
in this moment,I find that it is blessing and my heart is so peaceful,
there is a way for me now to continue my daily life,
"Therefore,strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. 'Make level paths for your feet',so that the lame may not be disabled,but rather healed" Hebrews 12:12
Apparently,this time I focus on Healing.
There is time when you have to die for resurrection,
burial is the process and live eternally is the end,
therefore,just be still !
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Au Chen loves August
August will be so good for me! I believe,do you?
As you believe,you receive!! COngrats!
There are some lessons I learnt in my spiritual life
Clearly know that,it is time to stretch to a new level.
Because life push me to do it, and I try this new method the whole month of July.
But I will try it at this August too,because I know: Nothing is difficult in LORD !!!
20 days of hard work will make me reap an abundant harvest,I believe!
This is time to stretch!
Having faith is not easy,
because there is time when you are in doubt,
but in time when you are doubt and dont want to seek God,
God will still control the whole world and work behind the scenes,
bring you something amazingly that you will never know....
I learn that,there is useless to seek anyone,any material things,any blessings,
when I seek God first,Honor Him, and I know all will be added to me.
And,
nowadays I can feel strongly that people and things around me can change rapidly,
I wonder how I can "survive" in some situations,
and I wonder how I can achieve victory in every hard work I have sow,
I draw a conclusion from that,
people that change will surprise you,things that change will shock you,
but God wont change,He is eternal !!
"But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:31
August is also a FAITH MONTH declared by myself.
Love my life! XoxO!
As you believe,you receive!! COngrats!
There are some lessons I learnt in my spiritual life
Clearly know that,it is time to stretch to a new level.
Because life push me to do it, and I try this new method the whole month of July.
But I will try it at this August too,because I know: Nothing is difficult in LORD !!!
20 days of hard work will make me reap an abundant harvest,I believe!
This is time to stretch!
Having faith is not easy,
because there is time when you are in doubt,
but in time when you are doubt and dont want to seek God,
God will still control the whole world and work behind the scenes,
bring you something amazingly that you will never know....
I learn that,there is useless to seek anyone,any material things,any blessings,
when I seek God first,Honor Him, and I know all will be added to me.
And,
nowadays I can feel strongly that people and things around me can change rapidly,
I wonder how I can "survive" in some situations,
and I wonder how I can achieve victory in every hard work I have sow,
I draw a conclusion from that,
people that change will surprise you,things that change will shock you,
but God wont change,He is eternal !!
"But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:31
August is also a FAITH MONTH declared by myself.
Love my life! XoxO!
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