Sing a new song!

Finally,there is no more struggle in my mind,
bible says,you have to guard your heart as heart is the wellspring of life!


Yeah,I do it right now!

Few days ago,I meet with many problems,
I can strongly feel the struggle in my mind,
It is a strong and hard spritual battle,
whether I choose to obey God or not.
Pathetic,I choose the desires of my heart!

"Rather,clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ,
and do not think about how to gratify the desires of sinful nature" Romans 13:14

It reminds me.


Just now I looked through the pictures that I grew from Form 3 to Form 5 until now,
there are pictures in facebook that show how is my growth,

how I pass the big test in that time,
how I was being comfortable with myself when I have a new life,
how I get back my self confidence to move forward,
how I prove to friends that look down at me and talking rubbish behind me,
how I get a new collection of good friends around me,
how I live peacefully with my family,
how I spend my time to do God's works,

And I can get the whole picture,
I clearly know that these are all blessings from God to help me grow!





But few days ago, emo emo de me think about the direction of my life,
I totally lost all the hopes to move forward!

There are battles I have to fight with,
I lose my hope in that difficult time,
I find that it is too hard to survive,
cant see the true direction and try so hard to figure the meaning of my life,
as I figure much and much,I find that I live more depressed and depressed.

Im reminding to tell myself,
am I going to live for who?


"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord"

"But blessed the man who trusts in Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its root by the stream"

Jeremiah 17:5-8

It tells me.


Obviously,I focus the wrong part again,
Joel's articles remind me times and times to focus on God and what He can do in our lives,
but I focus on the people and focus on the world,
at that time I had another struggle again,
it is about the pastor Joel and there are critisms about him,
omg,that's what in my mind.

I doubt am I read all the articles written by the "false prophet" in those time?

That's giving me another headache again!
What Im reading,does it related to God's words?

but now,
I have wisdom to differentiate whether the articles are what God wants to tell me or not.

There are many sounds in the world,
I learn to be wiser to know the sound of God and evil,
obviously,I can sense my growth in the Jan semester,
truly,the pastor's articles help me a lot,
and the most important is the scripture of Bible that Joel will post,
makes me know He is using bible teaching in his articles,
for that's God direction for me always!

because,
God's words=Promises

Beginning of a new semester,
I face again the same problem,
the financial problem worsen my status that time.

And honestly,Im being discouraged by all the things happened,
I don't have the mood to continue my study,
Many of my friends have stopped studying,
Im too dependent to people in surviving.

Here's another scripture!
"My grace is always sufficient for you,
God's strength is being showed completely in weak person"


Again,I feel that what I sow isn't what I reap!
Whether in relationship or in hard work,I doubt why I always get nothing in the end?

But today is the turning point of my probs,
I get a good and amazing result that I can't even imagine,
4 Flat in one of my subjects and others are 3.7!
I was shocked!!

That's telling me my payday is coming!
And another scripture that a sis in fb posts,
"God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them." Hebrews 6:10

It reminds me.

Although I haven't see the blessings that God will chase me down,
but I get hope inside!

I know,

Struggles make me stronger,

They make me to improve,

Im so happy to have weakness,

so that God can do amazing thing in my life,

just like how I look the pictures about my growth in these years,

Im still improving,problems will always kacau me,

but I rise higher this time!


I truly believe that,
in this new season of my life,
it will be blessed some more,
because I have God always available to help me,
with faith inside,I can break all obstacles on front of me,
I am more than conqueror!

AND NOW,
Im going to sing a new song to this season,
All Glory belongs to Him,
Amen~!

I believe for restoration!

It is May now.
I have been going through quite many small events in this year!
And most gratefully,Im still alive!

Back to Jerantut again,
and facing the same old people and same old events again,

keep listening many accusing voices,
keep changing my viewpoints and keep losing my peace,joy and hope,
keep doing the wrong things,
keep having the same old bad habits,
and keep being stucked by some people in my life..
It is haiyoo...hard!

Yet,
I believe for restoration!
Sometimes I felt really tired of depositing in some relationships,
I felt I have invested so much,
but thing that is keep distracting my life is the disappointment from people.
Im keep doubting sometimes why Im being treated unfairly by certain people,
I know my personality well,
people don't know me will just make a label 'weird' or 'geek' for me..
These all accusing voices make me tired of proving and explaning,
I have my emotions when Im being treated unfairly,
most of time it is suffering,
as I do the right things but I get the wrong rewards,
always,I remind myself to look back to myself,
"Am I doing wrong?" "Am I treating them bad?"
But sometimes really no,some are still being just so uncomfortable with me!

What I have done to make you ignore me? T.T

Haizz...



Yet, I know the story of Joseph,
who is the one in Old Testament I admire sooo much!
He is being betrayed by his brothers and sold to Eygpt,
yet he gets blessings abundantly from God,
just because he is willing and obedient enough.

Oh sorry!
I dont have such high EQ,
when being treated badly,
I will always try to pay back or leave the prints in my heart,
let my heart be so troubled,until affecting my daily activities!

But I know this, Restoration!

God is a God of restoration,
He knows me well,
He don't look only what I did,
but He looks what my desire and my heart and my motives.



When I get to know He is in control,

I can choose to shake some accusing voices off and let them go,

why I choose to let these to affect me,

to steal my joy,my peace and my victory?

When I choose to remian at rest and peace,

it means that Im going to hand this over to God,

no matter what things,they are belonged to God's battles,but not mine!

What am I going to do is keep doing the right thing,

even a relationship is never going to prosper,

even I don't get what I should get,

even Im standing in the midst of storm,

but these are not more my battles!


This holiday,
Im going to spend it for God somemore for myself!
I will keep chasing what God has put in me,
the talents,the gifts,the desires,
And Im going to prosper like Joseph!
If and only if Im obedient and willing enough...
I won't lose my hope in my life

You Are Holy (Prince of Peace)

Be still, God is our All in All !

Love is all that remains!

Sharing:

Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers… (I Peter 4:8, NIV)

So often, people try to make others fit into their mold and be just like them. We think, “If they would just change, then I wouldn’t get upset. If they would just do it the way I want, then they wouldn’t get on my nerves.” But really, we need to give people room to be who God created them to be. Life is too short to spend it trying to fix everybody. Sure, we should encourage people and help them grow and come up higher. But we have to come to the point where we step back and say, “All right, this is who God made them to be, and I’m going to accept them the way they are. Just because they don’t have my same strengths, I’m not going to let that frustrate me.” We have to choose love every day because love covers over our differences and offenses. Love is what allows us to appreciate what others bring into our lives, and it brings us together in unity.

Today, above all, choose love. Choose to focus on the things that make your relationships stronger because in the end, love is all that remains.

This is an article written by Joel,pastor in America!

This article has reminded me so much,

and I just need it now!

There is some long time ago,

Im being offensed by a friend,

I told my mum,some of my friends,

it is giving me peer pressure,

Im living in some kind of nervous tension mood!

I choose to ignore,

ignore back the person!

Walao! How dare am I!

Obviously,this is not the way God wants me to live!

But gratefully,

I get this message!

I love most the two sentences from this passage especially!

Life is too short to spend it to fix everybody.

Love is all that remains.

When we are being treated unfairly,

we sure have negativce mindset rush into our head,

but stay calm,that is not a good voice,

but then,instead of paying back the bad actions or win over argueing,

choose to stay at peace and calm,

this is what I hear today,

this is the way I learn today,

although things happen quite some long time ago,

and love can cover all the mistakes,

just like how God save me,

Love is all that remains in the ending!

So...admit that,Im wrong!

This is time to fix back the relationship!xo!

A Choice

Back to this lovely hometown this time,
there are many chances to meet with many people here,
and I feel that always the problems exist,
about the people,about the circumstance,
how bad it was,how terrible someone is.

My God,it affects my status sometimes!

And these days I know a clue:

You can choose to live with the circumstances that people around you are talking about,
or you can run your own race, live in the way positively!

Somethings or someone didnt change doesnt mean God is giving up them,
may be there are many events will happen after then that we dont know.
But the circumstances always show that there is no more hope,
but keep in mind that God is always doing behinde the scenes,
thats why God's ways are higher than us,
just like Joseph that is talking to his brothers that have been treated him badly,
"I forgive you all,Im focusing on what God miracle workings"

Scripture says,
"Now to him who is able to do in full measure more than all our desires or thoughts, through the power which is working in us"

Keep expecting,believing and doing right thing is the clue.

Never give up, for persistence produces success finally!

I clearly know it is not easy to get off the circumstance,
but I dare to believe :)

The "Wow"

We are easily get ourselves stuck in a constant circumstance.
the circumstance may be an easy, comfortable; but it can also be full of negative sounds.
We get stuck, we don't know how to do even we have done a prayer.

Im being so thanksgiving in these weeks,
for God has given me a sooo good inspiratorto keep my mindset always focus on Him.

There is something happened in my father mental problems.
My father thought that he will be out of his mind, he had suffered enough in the past,
from his activities, I can read that, He is losing his passionate about his life.

Now, the old doctor passed away,
a new doctor comes,
giving him a correct perspection of his "created sickness".

It is actually a small case, my dad din think it positively,
he think in totally negative mindset,
but my mum encourages him, don't think too much, take a esay life.
He starts jogging..I start praying...And now...

God WOW me!!
My prayer is being responded.

The change of doctor gives him a really new hope,
that is small case, the doctor can know him through the conservation,
and the conversation with my sister about dad's life,
may be my father lacks of conversation with others,
think, who can a big man talk to, wanna pretending to be strong always,
and have to be strong always to protect his family and himself..

HOWEVER !!

God is working..behind the scenes...


I know, I understand,
Our mindset affects the things we can do in our lives,
Our mindset determines which level our lives will be.

What thoughts do you have now?

Positive or Negative?

You really can make miracle in your life, just start from your thought, capturing His promises,
activating faith, moving forward with joy and peace which are given FREE for you,
and now, this is a new life!

Bible says,

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
(Proverbs 4:23)

Same application for Christian or non-Christian.

Againm Glory to Most High God!!!!

Close to Blessings

It is a great Sunday!

I have gone to gospel hall for worship and sunday service...

The feeling now is so nice and relieved!

I love this feeling,knowing God is in control of EVERYTHING,

clearly I know that is is a feeling of peace and joy.

It is again my good start in this week.

From the sermon I learnt,

we can know that faith should be activated,

faith is a saying without working,
faith can be accomplished by DOING.

Abraham is known by Father of Faith,

he has done pretty well in his life,

whenever God asks him to do,he does;

He has built a really good relationship woth God,

even God dont want to hide any thoughts from Abraham.(Gen 18:17)

Can you imagine how good the relationship is!

From the sermon,I know that we will be blessed when we build good relationship woth God.

Every area in your life: relationship,health,academic,finances and any others,

you can get from God, because God is in control of anything.

Jesus said,He wants us to live an abundant life,without worries..

See,how good it is if we have abundant life with real peace and joy!

Yet,sometimes we may face challenges and testing form God,

even Abraham.

But he activate his faith,

he does what God wants him to do,

God wants him to sacrifice his son as burnt offering,

apparently,it is difficult to make this decision,

have you thought before,what you will do if God wants you to do that?

And finally, we know that it is just a test from God,

Abraham is being stopped by God,

God is testing his faith,and now he is blessed much more,

due to this FAITH!!

Sooo...

If we know God well, we know that He is a merciful and He is a sign of love,

He loves you and me and everyone,

until you reach a level of faith,you will do whatever God wants you to do,

because YOU KNOW HIM,

he won't want you to "kill your son as offering"

because He loves us,

we sometimes hesistated to do something just because of we don't know God well.

Are we get more far from God now?

Today is a great day to start get His blessings!

and remember,

when we are hesitated to "sacrifice our sons for offering to God".

God HAD "sacrifice his son for us" !

God Bless~

Glory to you Lord!

Yaahooo!!
The greatest fear now,the presentation is over!!
Yeah!! Really want to praise Lord.
For he gives me a strong and brave heart to present..

And I get my response from teacher "good presenter"!
wasai!!
Im sooo excited and satisfied,
actually in the process of presentation many small accidents happen,
one of them is the zip of my pant is stucked!!
omg..This is the most horrible presentation ever...

I go to toilet and do the prayer...
With peace,Im doing my part well!
Im not scared at all...
And really,I get to know God is helping me when Im totally favor-minded!

Praise to Lord.
No others God can give this feeling of peace and happy ever...
You are my Lord,You are my God!
Amen!

In process of Learning

A good start, it is March!
3/3/10,
I must learn to appreciate everything in my life now,
I must cherish people around me now.

Im so blessed,
although Im facing some discouraged circumstances such as the coming presentation,the relationship with my dear friends,the financial problems and the most scratching prob in my life since three or four years ago!

Because I know my value.
My owner is Jesus Christ,how valuable am I that he bought me from evil !
Although Im not perfect,Im still making mistakes,
Im still so valuable in front of Jesus.
Some days ago,I declare to myself: I have Jesus Christ,then Im so rich now!
Yup..It is so true.
If we enthrone the first position with Jesus in our heart,
we perceive that eveything will get into their own position where those things should be positoned.


So, we should focus on God more than other things!


I notice who is being used by God to bring me to know Him,
She is my love,Ada Choi...lol...

I really love her and her perception towards life,
it is always opstimic and happy,
she can bring much joy to people around her,
she can be blessings to others by sharing the love of Jesus.
She is greatly affecting me,
and I know I should take some benefits from her outlook.
I think back things that I have done in these months,
the negative sounds such as
depression,envy,selfishness and some more things that make even I hate myself sometimes.

In this new year,I want to change..
It is so easy to speak out!
I will do my part and I will let God does the rest,
I know the importance of prayer,
the communication with God should be done more often,
I want to build a great relationship with God.

By loving Him,
By obeying Him.

This is the sharing from Joel(facebook):

When Jesus performed His first miracle, He was at a wedding celebration. His mother knew that in order to see His power at work, there was one key: “Whatever He says, do it.” It’s the same way with us today, our obedience opens the door to see His power manifest in our lives. The Scripture says, “If we are willing and obedient, we will eat the good of the land.” In other words, we’ll experience God’s abundant blessing when we follow His commands.

Oftentimes, we may be so focused on the thing we are believing for that we overlook simple obedience in other areas. For example, you may need a financial miracle. Maybe you’re tithing and sowing seed like you should, but are you holding unforgiveness toward someone? Is there something else you know you should do?

Today, ask the Lord to search your mind and heart. Don’t let anything block His power. Whatever He says, do it and watch that obedience open the door to His blessing in every area of your life!

Prayer for Today: Father in heaven, I humbly come to You submitting every area of my life to You. I want to be obedient to You. I want to honor You. Show me any areas of my life where I need to make changes. I bless You today and always. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

I find that it is easy to have a happier life,
but if we don't look things from viewpoint of God,
we will get discouraged very easily,
I learn today,obeying Him.

Do care my feelings

Get hurt again,

with the payment of love and net loss of humiliation.

It is so difficult for me to handle relationship,

my behavior and attitude are not belonged to "aggresive ways"..

So many times when get humiliated I will try my best to let it pass,

not because of I scared,just because of I don't want to lose you dude,my friend !

I can be cruel,

but I don't want,
because Im patient to wait how many amazing works God will do in our relationship!

And I now wonder,

what attitude should I have on you?

It gives me pressure dear,

it is what I study before,the"peer pressure"..

Im someone who want to get respect too,

looks kind doesn't mean I won't angry,

humiliation sometimes can hurt one.

Do you understand?

___

Dude,

I don't know whether you got read my blog or not,

but Im really hope you can see my love to you,although you are a man!wakaka...

You are soooo great to me when I have no friends,

you are the one who will accompany me to hang out when I face my probs last time.

And I treat you as my soul friend,do you know that?

But nowadays I notice what changes in your life,

that is not you...isn't it?

You are brave,even I can't do this thing,

but you show your courage by decorate yourself as a strong person.

You are sooo nice,really,

you don't have to be so sad with probs of love now..

You are the one who often show the happier face when we hang out,

but in Cny,I find you many times,

what let me disappointed is the emotion you have and the attitudes you show.
It is in negative way..

That's also the point Im sometimes choose to diam diam,

because Im so surprise with the new you..

It is not really you from my perception,

may be Im not so close to your life,

but as a good friend,I know that hihihaha with you is not as good as remind you,

the true you,

anyway,the way you choose I will pray for you!

I'm someone who always seek for friends that can be helpful in building our souls.

And I will try my best to send my love from Christ to everybody,

but my love is not cheap...

Dont destroy friendship that is so fragile.

It is tired for my soul and mind.

Im now going to rest in my imagination!

It is March,

although I get so many discouragement in Feb,

but those things are come to pass in my life !

They won't stay,and I will be always victor in God !

Targets:

1.Final exam all subjects CGPA: >3.5

2.Start to creat business environment

3.Get as much as knowledge as I can

4.Enjoy all the moments with enthusiasm!!

xoxo...Im Wil !!

And this,is what God gives me!

There are appropriate times to stand in your power.

Power isn't always evil.

If you stand tall in the power of goodness, you can have a powerful impact on a situation.

How amazing!

He knows what attitudes I should start to have!

If God is be with you,who dares to against you?!

Start to dream dude!

One of the purpose You live is to achieve your dream,
this is always what Im trying to tell myself.

The perception of success of every people is different,
but in my viewpoint,
not wealth,not power nor your status in the society can be used to measure my success,
my success is measured by "how many dreams can be insisted by me to complete it"!


I have a complicated mood now.
My friend,Khai Xin is going to Korea to study,
and we are knowing each other almost 7-8 years,
although we are not so close to each other,
we still acknowledge and try to know the current issues that that person is doing now.

She is flying...

I just had a farewell in KLIA just now..
Im sure she has a moreee complicated mood now..
5 years in Korea and hard to meet with her family,
but this is her choice and golden chance to start a great life,
wish her really, God Bless...

Everyone has dreams...
You can laughh at others' dreams,but you can't laugh at yours;
especially when you meet with some problems,
don't laugh the dreams crazily and then give up on it,
take serious spirit,and no matter how the problem is bigger,
solve it,then it is a success.

What are you facing today?
Do you still persue your dream?
Or have you give it up?

One of my dream-Flying with my aeroplane!

Amazing things can continue if you Believe!

Many small things happen in our lives sometimes,
we may concern about it but when you tell people and
they will just give you a "cheh..just like this"...

So,there are many things no need to be shared to others.
And also...We can share with God.

All the small things are cared by God who love you.
If not,breathe deeply,the air is a great sign of love to you!

And in just this late night,I can feel the amazing things start to happen in my family!

My elder sis who can be described as stubborn and inobedient went to the "dong chan shi"for visit and play,
she din call and just sms-ed to my father,
and now is almost 2 o clock in the midnight,
my father start to worry and he is bad-tempered,he shows the frustrations out,
smoking in front the house,a worrying face,and affect others with his emo...

Erm...When he does this all,I bravely tell him,
"you cant live in this way,Every time u face problem u are doing this stuff,I help you to pray,no nid to worry"

Joel always remind me that God is controlling all those things, so no need to worry so much.
Fear is a weapon of Satan,and prayer is weapon of us, amazing things are weapon of God!!

Started....
I notice that God starts to do some works in my family,
yahooo.....

My family one day may all become Christians!!
And I always pray for this,
although I have small faith over many things,
and I din know God well,
and I din understand God's love well,
but I know,when you have faith,then it will be!

And I...
so proud of what I say in front my dad,"I pray for her"


AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
and my sis sent me the message:almost 3 o clock she will reach home!!!
I tell my dad,as I call him to sleep,I will wait...
It is amazing!!!
God will do things in amazing way!!!

Oh,halleluyah!

Thinking much , too much

Oh oh oh...Crazy Wil back liao!!
Erm..it is a black new year since Cho 3...
lol..because I have too many thoughts in my mind..
Again I do the same mistake,when I come back Jerantut,
Im lazy to ling xiu -_-"

Alohaiz...
So when I get to know some weird things I have many thoughts..
And nowadays,what do I get stuck in?

It is
1.Marriage
2.Relationship

Honestly,what things in my life Im concern on?
It is family the priority and the second is friends of course.
it is sometimes not easy to build a strong relationship among friends,
and recently I find that what my thought and others are getting far,
Im eager to join the topic but my behavior and my attitude isnt that,
how can force myself to laugh and discuss over that thing?
I have tried.
But it is terrible.

Today,I declare to choose to be myself.

1.The my my that I love the most to be.
2.The person that I can please God the most.
3.The "me"who have bigger dreams and persue the dreams aggresively!

Yoyoyo..
anytime I say that,it is most comfortable to be myself!!

Frens,dun try to be somebody else.
God make the special 'you'!
Is you! You!
Who are you? You should think it in silence mood without interuption.
You should figure it out,
it is too sad to be somebody else,
you have your own attitude,behavior,lifestyle...
You are sooo special,
and I...
am going to please God with the my talents ands abilities,
and I..
going to be blessings to others although I always let out the negative ions around me...

We must learn,
we are enjoying the person God made us to be.

Extremely Blessed

当时听到这词，我很感动，因为我完全被接纳了；今天我再听这词，我又被赎回来了。

“没有别的名字像你一样，完全赦免，我的过犯”

取自：我们天上的父。

It is difficult for us to admit our wrongdoings in front of people,
but today I learn that,we must admit our wrongs in front of God.

“你要专心仰赖耶和华，不可依靠自己的聪明”

“在你一切上行的事上，都要认定他，他必指引你的道路”

Today Im so blessed.
Im so brave to admit my wrong in front of God,
and I feel again Im being forgived.

He loves me.It is based on love.
If not,why Jesus was being crucified?

Sometimes Im weak,Im scared why no response in my prayer,
we can't even see the face of God or get back the response from God directly,
because we are often get response immediately from people when talking.

Then we curious.

Joel teaches us not to be afraid.

I should cast off my fear and anxiety,
I should expect God's goodness and favor instead of scared too much.

And get from Bible,

Jesus himself tells me,directly,
"Don't be afraid;just believe!"Mark 5:36

From bad day with incident of disappearing of phone and disappointment in accounting lessons,
God turns it to a great day.

Halleluyah!

You know what?
We are believe in name of Lord,our God!!!

Bad Mood day

It is totally freak out.
I have a hectic life start from 7 o clock in the morning,
I hate this lifestyle.

And..I affect my whole day mood by thinking some things that should not be in my mind.
The fear controls me,I scared to do many things,I get discouraged.

Started...My bad mood day come...


Today I was surprised by one of my classmate's incident,
he has lost him mother,
his mother passed away due to an accident.

I get shocked although I don't know the guy well.

But five weeks spending with him,
our teacher also feel sorry about his stuff.

From Haiti earthquake,to the dragonboat accident,and these days a student crashed by a bus,
I find that...

Life is too brief.

Always people get troubled with the "death" thing,
So am I.

We don't know why , when , how we die one day,
or may be our beloved get far from us.

So,what we can do is to appreciate things around us,
we love them honestly,
we live happily,
we think positively,
we work collectively,
we have a fullest life.

And now I remembered the death of Jesus,
who DIED for us,
he pay the debt and we only can get the chance to have eternal life.

Without Him,we are nothing.

I always get noticed that Im the salt and light in world,
let God's love can shine to others through us.

Love is the most important asset in our life.
Use it properly.

Get your life meaningfully.